In Her Own Words 3

This page is Becky's journey to recovery as told in her own words.

Friday, January 19, 2007 

Becky says, "I want to start posting my feelings and such on the web site. I hope my story will help me heal and help others that might be going through something similar."   

Sunday, January 28, 2007 

Hi Everyone, I'm back in the hospital for my second round of treatments. If things go well I'll get to go home next Sat or Sun. I'm getting fluids now getting my system/kidneys ready for the chemo tomorrow. Five days of chemo is rough. I want to thank all of you for the gifts and well wishes and prayers. This diagnosis has been the worst of my life but I'm ready to fight it. I'm writing from my brand new laptop Karin's   friends got for me. It's wonderful. I'll go for now and read, and get ready for tomorrow. Love, Becky 

Saturday, April 14, 2007

It's April 14 and I'm feeling as well as to be expected considering what I've been through. And still have to go through. Good news is five chemo treatments down and one to go!! Four out of six of these treatments were spent in the hospital hooked to an iv for six days at a time. I got very sick from four of the long ones. The short ones consist of two nights in the hospital and three short treatments. I have one of these to go. The first didn't make me sick so I'm hoping the next doesn't either. I go next week for final treatment (I hope). And it's the short one. So maybe no sickness. I have begun sort of a journal. So much is a blurr. Much due to the pain meds, chemo and maybe just me wanting to block the horrible experience out. Within the next days and weeks I hope to tell what I can in hope to help someone else facing this. I also have a best friend going through breast cancer and we hope to do a book together. So lots of ideas, I just need the energy to get started. My greenhouse is up and running thanks to my sister, mom and friend Debbie. And don't let me forget my son's part in my success. Even my greenhouse suffered tragedy when I was in the hospital for the first week long stay when our gas went off and we lost everything. I had some beautiful ferns. So even though we're running late, I think we'll make a go of it. I'm closing for now. Love, Becky.   

Sunday, May 6, 2007

Hi Everyone, I’m back It’s May 6 and it’s been one of my best days. Except I woke with what feels like maybe a chest cold!! I had the same thing in the middle of treatments and it made me super sick. Hopefully this time around I’ll be stronger and be able to fight the biggest part of it. I’m done with all six sessions of treatments and the last did make me very sick. The doctor said I was just run down so much. I go May 14 for an MRI and I’m praying and hoping I’m in remission. If the scan isn’t clear Dr. Craig, my beloved doctor says I’ll need more treatment but not as intensive as what I’ve just been through. I face a fifty percent chance of the tumor coming back. Which is quite depressing. But I need to think positive that I’ll be the fifty that it doesn’t reoccur. He also said if my scan looks good that it will need to be repeated every three months for two years. And of course watch symptoms like confusion and or fainting and seizure. In other words I’ll have to be aware of any symptoms the rest of my life. I did meet another CNS Lymphoma patient while at Ruby. I’m exactly ten days older than him. We both are doing well with our treatments and I’m so anxious to see how his scan is. It was unreal to meet someone with the exact kind of cancer as rare as it is. Only one percent of cancer victims get it. I’m almost sick of the word rare. My greenhouse is moving. Kind of slow since people are still afraid of frost or freeze. Please everyone think of me on the 14th and as soon as I get home I’ll let you know what was found. I hope nothing. Love, Becky